As a knitter and seamstress, one of my biggest stumbling blocks is the difficulty I have in concentrating. My mind is very foggy sometimes, and even though I think I'm following the instructions correctly, somehow the project doesn't look like it should.
For example, I was trying to work on the Ropes and Ladders scarf, my first cabling project, last week. It was actually going well the first time I cast on, but I wasn't happy with how loose my CO was, so I frogged it and started over. That's when the problems started. No matter what I did, no matter how hard I tried, the pattern just wasn't working for me. I had too many stitches on my needles at one point, then too few, and the pattern that was forming looked odd. It had seemed so easy the first time before frogging, and I kind of wish I'd kept going with that attempt. Maybe one end would have been a little loose, but if the pattern looked right, I don't think I would have cared so much.
Fibro/CFS are the reasons I put projects down for weeks or months at a time. I get so frustrated and confused that I feel like I can never accomplish what I've started out to do, that I'll never understand. They've been the reason that a lot of my hobbies have come to a screeching halt: writing and reading are the other pasttimes that have become difficult for me.
I'm doing all I can to ease the pain and the fog, but it's very difficult some days.
Hopefully, I can get started on the Ropes and Ladders scarf again, because it's beautiful.
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6 years ago
1 comment:
Liz,
I can empathize with your frustration, having CFS also. It's exactly the symptoms I experience at certain times when I'm working a pattern with any complexity to it (even though it might seem quite simple to others). Every once in awhile the clarity breaks through and I can finish something with a little complexity, but not often.
I keep hope alive by queuing a zillion projects in Ravelry and telling myself I may actually accomplish them one day ^.^
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