What's this?

I quit my job as a barista a week ago. Well, it'll be a week ago tomorrow afternoon.

My symptoms, all of them (pain, fatigue, nausea, headaches, etc.) just keep getting worse and more unpredictable. If I knew when they would strike I'd at least be a little less anxious, but they hit whenever they feel like it.

Of course, this has to happen right around the time I find out I've lost my insurance through work. By 2.75 hours, because my manager was a dickhead. He knows I was struggling to meet my hours and still screwed me over. Cue panic attacks.

And then last week I saw a new endocrinologist. She's stymied as to why my last endo thought it would be a good idea to leave a small nodule (a malignant nodule, even!) in my neck. So I need to see if a surgeon thinks that's viable, and of course can't do jack-shit about it until I have insurance again. Also can't see any specialists until I have insurance again.

I'm also trying to find a new job but I'm hitting the wall. A clerical job seems like a good idea at first, mostly because I'd likely be off my feet for most of the time, but I can't multi-task. Some days I can barely speak the English language. I have trouble concentrating and even walking straight sometimes.

My only hope there is checking out vocational rehab in my area, and seeing if they can point me in the right direction. From there it might be on to filing for disability. Who knows at this point?